I drug myself out of bed, eyes still half open/half shut and
stumbled to the bathroom. I stopped on the way by the linen closet, fumbled for
a wash cloth, and continued to stumble until I reached the bathroom sink –
which I knew – totally by feel. I fumbled for the faucet to turn on the water
and I stood there, dead still, eyes closed, wondering why I ever agreed to
this.
The water began to warm up and I wet my toothbrush, applied
the toothpaste, and began to brush – again, with my eyes alternately open and
shut. Upon completing that task, I was a little more alive, so I grabbed the
wash cloth and begin to wet/soap it up to wash my face. Finally, I was almost
human.
I trudged to the kitchen to start the coffee maker, because
without that sweet hot java, the journey could not continue.
It was 4:30 in the morning and I was trying to be a human
being. I was trying to behave like I thought what was happening was as good of
an idea as I did the night before when planning it. As some ideas always seem like so much more
fun when I’m wide awake and raring to go.
The coffee had brewed, my cup was already full of what I
needed to make it like heaven for me, Splenda and creamer, and I poured from
the pot like an addict who needs a fix. As I took the first very small sip,
because it’s hotter than a sidewalk in August, I felt the rush. I could literally feel my veins begin to open
up and my blood actively waking-up the rest of my body and my brain.
We climbed into the truck, it was still dark, and we headed
out, face of the vehicle first, pulling our soon-to-be bundle of joy behind us.
We stopped long enough for ice and the food of my pleasure and his, and we
continued on our way.
We pulled into our destination, then we backed-in the rest
of the way. We swapped positions, and now I was the driver and he was the
receiver. We’d done this dance many times before, but it had been awhile.
However, it’s just like riding a bike, you really don’t forget how, and it
comes right back to you.
My window was rolled down and I could smell that deep, rich,
intoxicating smell that reminds me why I loved it so. And as I breathed it deep
into my lungs, I remembered exactly why I decided that THIS is exactly where I
wanted to be before sunrise.
I had everything we needed in my bag, I was wearing my pink
rubber Avon shoes and I walked the dock and stepped aboard. I could smell the
fish just waiting for me to find the right spot, to find them. I found my seat,
and as I was gripping my white cup full of green florescent worms in one hand
and his bucket of creepy crickets in the other, the boat took off at a slow
crawl.
Tune in next week to hear the results!
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